Oops!

I live my life trying to appear perfect. I hate having to admit my faults, and my own conscious can be my own worst enemy at times. I rarely open up to people. I am writing this post to tell you that I am NOT perfect. Don't let any of your past encounters with me fool you. I mess up, make mistakes and have an extremely cluttered desk. Ask my room mate and she will tell you. Underneath my organized projection of myself is about half my wardrobe lying on the floor (mostly due to the fact that i have to wear about 203975 layers to step outside these days) and a bed that is never made (i just don't see the point!). 

Last night I was wondering why even though i try so hard, I feel like I am constantly disappointing God. And then I realized that God allows us to sin. No, God does not like sin, in fact he HATES sin. But the reason sin was introduced in the first place was so that we are forced to make a choice. Have faith in God, or reject Him. God didn't want robots. But once I accepted Christ as my Savior, why was I not made perfect right away? God uses our mistakes and failures to teach us. He also uses them to teach others. When I think about all the people in the Bible who God set as examples for us to follow, I can also find a flaw to each of them. Every Single Person. Everyone. All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. (Romans 3:23). Something else I realized is that i shouldn't worry that my mistakes will affect God's will for my life. I am earnestly seeking His will and whatever He wants to happen with my life, will happen. It is silly of me to think that my actions would have enough effect to alter, much less ruin, God's perfect plan. So you know waht, i thinkk its ok for me to not be perfec t right now. it wil just make heaven that much better!