Jumbly Thoughts

I have a problem of getting stressed out and overwhelmed when lots of little things start piling on all at once. Give me a major crisis, I can handle it. But give me a series of 3 little frustrating events and I feel like everything is spiraling out of control. Sometimes life happens. 

These are the lyrics to a song called On The Radio by Regina Spektor. I really like it and it is so true!

This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath

No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again

My Irrational Fear

I am TERRIFIED of centipedes. Not the way most people say they are scared of spiders. I mean crippling fear. The other day, I was innocently sitting at my computer waiting for itunes to start up when I found myself caught in a scene from a horror movie. Out from behind my lovely painting on my wall crawled what i now know to be called (after making Courtney Google facts for me) the House Centipede. I blinked, and it was still there. It was ugly, and icky, and fast, and scary! It scampered across the wall and I pushed myself back across the room in my chair and made a sound like this:

Eeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

And my eyes were THIS BIG!

I didn't know what to do. Because in my world, the next worse thing to a live centipede in your room is a dead centipede in your room. But I had to kill it. Courtney was across campus and thus could offer no help at the time and it had conveniently crawled between myself and the door. I was trapped. I thew a shoe. Then three more shoes. It was sneaky and could dodge well. After an intense stare down session, I threw one of Courtney's rainbows (with slightly too much force) at the awful creature and literally conquered my fear. But not figuratively. I was left with literally shaky hands and did not dare go clean up the guts or corpse. 


P.S. I may have written this dramatic and satirical, but in reality the feelings I have expressed were real.

I almost forgot what it was like...

Well hello there my 9 friends who follow my blog and random people who find this on the internet. Contrary to popular belief, I have neither died, lost creative inspiration or given up on my blog. However, I do find myself in a very different place than where I was at this time last year, and even since my last post. Allow me to list a few for you (chronologically for your convenience):

1. I have a wonderful boyfriend. His name is Sam Smith and I kinda like him a lot. Okay, maybe a little more than that :) We have been dating for 5 months now.
2. My beautiful friend Jessica Perry is now Mrs. Jessica Ellis! And Trey and Kelsey are engaged!! (so are Aaron and Laura, Jordan and Rebecca, Nathan and Hannah, and Annie and Zach!) SO MUCH MARRIAGE!!
3. I worked all summer at New Life Camp as a counselor (and even did a week of service staff) for the third year in a row. There were a lot of changes that happened there, too many to list out in a post. It was a good summer overall I would say, and the theme Life's Not Fair was extremely relevant and much needed.
4. My parents are separated. My mom moved into an apartment in the beginning of August.
5. I am back at Appalachian State University as a Sophomore taking 17 hours
6. I now live in Mountaineer Hall (the new dorm on campus) and it is about a BILLION times better than living in Eggers! The only downside is my ongoing battle with the AppalCart.

So there you have it. I am sure as soon as I post this I will think of other things to update you on but that will just have to wait for a later time because I'm feeling a little hungery mungery...

A Song That I Know All the Words To

Well honestly I know the words to about 95% of the songs on my ipod. But this song is special because my best friend when I was little used to sing this song every time it came on the radio and I was always so jealous that she new the words. I promised myself that one day I would be able to sing this song and I now (kinda) proudly say I can!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fC_q9KPczAg

Also, this video is CRAZZZYYYYYY!! Seriously I have no idea how it fits with the song.

A Song That Reminds Me Of A Certain Event

My first year on staff as a counselor at New Life Camp there was a girl in my cabin who I led to Christ on the porch after campfire on Thursday night. One of the songs that we sung for worship that summer was Jesus Paid It All. As I was explaining the gospel to her, I mentioned how Jesus' death on the cross paid for our sin and now it is as if we never sinned in God's eyes. In response to this she said "It's just like the song! Sin left a crimson stain, He washed it white as snow!" And that was exactly right.

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O3o3DiMVdOI&feature=related

A Song That Remids Me of Somewhere

I really didn't listen to Christian music until I was in Middle School, so during my Elementary School years I was obsessed with the Spice Girls, Brittany Spears, Backstreet Boys, and NSYNC. Whenever I hear songs from these bands I remember dancing to them with my best friend Marlee in my bubblegum pink bedroom at my house on Capers Ct where I lived from kindergarten to third grade. Good times :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9wfpXI5PKlw

A Song That Reminds Me Of Someone

My sister has this odd obsession with Bon Jovi. Every time I hear a Bon Jovi song I think of Michelle. She is by far my favorite sister.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KrZHPOeOxQQ